1, 2, 3, 4, 5... Am I still Alive?

1... today there is no sun
2... aw fuck you
3... what's the matter with me?
4... I dont want to run anymore
5... Am I still alive?
6... the night gives me a gentle kiss
7... I look at the time; it's 9:11
8... there's no one that can relate
9... I'm running out of time
10... There's still someone that has to defend
11... I look at the time again; it's 10:07
12... it bleeds like hell
13... I had so long to come clean
14... what could this possibly mean?
15... I'm one of those people that goes unseen
16... the dagger's blade gleams
17... my fear is bursting out the seams
18... the pain lands on me like heavy beams
19... I swear to God, I think I might scream
20... Now do you believe me?